Lord of the Flies, Chapter 5

Beast from Water

Stepping Up

I'm losing control. And the the worst part...everybody knows it. Especially that jeering, dumb-butt Jack. I call a meeting at night for crying out loud, and it starts out well and then drastically goes downhill. Nobody respects me anymore. They think that not interrupting me at meetings is respect, but it is more than that. Respect is not crapping by the tents that we sleep in instead of by the rocks. Respect is not interrupting people when they have the conch. (mostly interrupting Piggy) Respect is not bullying and degrading someone. Respect is FOLLOWING THE RULES that we all made. Apparently, nobody cares about maintaining their sanity. All everybody cares about now is taking advantage of their freedom. Do you want to know what I say to that? It is ludicrous bollocks that we have no care for the rules, no matter how much they may help us survive.

Jack is going to get it. How dare he embarrass me in front of everybody. I am the leader not him, so he should just deal with that instead of tempestuously throwing a temper tantrum. He may be a strong and alert hunter, but regardless of that, he is a discursive, stupid, vain, lamenting baby! And I did not care for him saying that I favored Piggy. Who does Jack think he is! Leader? Nuh, uh. Heck to the no. He is a gangly teenager that is so self-conceited and arrogant, that he is almost completely unaware of the fact that nobody cared about him catching a stupid pig. Normally, I would have said "Good Job", but in the process of catching the pig, he went behind my back and let the fire out. Because of his stupidity, we were cost a ticket home. I was looking forward to seeing my family again, but Jack just had to crush all of our dreams and hopes. Jack needs to take a "chill pill". "Sadly", we're are not in England, so we can't just go to a "pharmacy". No thanks to stupid Jack.

After that row with Jack, I think maybe I should step down. The one person I wanted to respect me the most just spat in my face. I don't want to be leader if nobody is going to let me lead. Because then, what is the point of being a leader; you're not doing anything! But Piggy thinks that it would be stupid of me to step down, because then Jack could do whatever he wanted. Which includes beating the snot out of Piggy whenever he likes. When I think about the damage Jack could do to Piggy, it sends shivers down my spine. I will not let that happen. Not while I'm around.